Tuesday, March 3, 2009 ' 9:34 PM Y
Hey hey, its been so long since i blogged. I was quite busy. Got so many homework. Now tests are coming up, must prepare.
A lot of happy things happen too^^
I no need go australia but hav conditions to follow, must do well in studies, cannot go out with laogong unless its holidays and cannot call him T.T haix so sad over this condition, but hav to bear with it to be with him.
Muacks laogong~ Love ya!!!
I now almost do finish HW thn can go audi with laogong!!!
Laogong also gonna hav a phone plan tt has unlimited free sms, thn now we no need control, erm... actually i need control cos i using prepaid hahas. I always so sad whn laogong get scolding by his dad bcoz of phone bill and i knw its my fault T.T but now no need worry ler i guess^^
I love HIM LOADSSS!!! Wish we can meet soon^^ Ok gtg ler. Tmr hav maths test. Revise a bit then can go meet laogong in audi ler^^
Sunday, February 15, 2009 ' 8:47 PM Y
Alone now... alone outside... its a whole new experience... Uue feel so lonely, yet ueu enjog the ppl walking by, the events happening. I am reli clueless of wht to do ler. I hav a high chance of going to migrate to australia. By start of march, if my dad dun change his decision. i reli dun wish to live. Today i runaway frm home for the first time, i reli feel so hurt ler... i maybe wan go die... haix... he did this like 4 or 5 times ler... just leave audi and msn like tt. T.T i mean he is the guy lehx... am i suppose to go chase after him... i reli feel so damn hurt... I reli dunnu wht to do. Feel like ending my life so tt all this pain and hurt goes away. i rather die than migrate to australia. I also rather die then feel this pain and suffering. Maybe this is the end for us. There is a saying, 有一种爱叫做放手, maybe letting go is beta. I should let him go find someone who is more compatible with him. Who is not selfish, won't easily cry and feel sad, and not so demanding. I am a spoilt bitch. Not worthy of him. Now all i wan is to at least hear his voice for once. I will forever LOVE uue darling <333 But i hope uue go find someone else.
Friday, February 13, 2009 ' 11:09 PM Y
T.T Why is love sometimes so PAINFUL T.T although i get more happiness out of it... i also get pain that is so heart-breaking. Pls i dun wan to feel this pain again T.T its just too painful. Everytime uue say GoodBye... it hurts ... its like a burning, sharp sword piercing through my heart... I reli wish sometimes... we did nt even strt off chatting... cos the ending hurts me the most T.T Sometimes it does not hurt at all... coz he will accompany me until late at night when after i turn off the com i would just go to sleep... and the next day i would wake up talking to him again... but sometimes... the moment he leaves... i knw i will not talk to him for the next half a day or so... just that though alone burns my heart... so painfully T.T All i wish is to be able to talk to you in the morning until my school starts... after school when i am tired out by the lessons... and in the night... right before i sleep... maybe its too much i am asking... but i cant change it... and it realli hurts so MUCH to think of him and not be able to contact him ... so much pain... i guess Pain comes along with happiness... but the pain maybe too much for me... i hold on every week ... but i dunnu how long i can hold on... i just wish that this love we have would not have pain come with happiness... but maybe that's impossible. Now i feel so induced with pain... hope after writing it out... i wou't feel that much pain... I dunnu if i can sleep tonite...T.T I dun feel like doing anything now... i feel so empty... so meaningless... maybe would even be glad dying... Such pain is killing me... why... why ... why... he is always so tired... could uue not even give me the chance to enjoy a friday night with him... the onli night when we could chat through the night... I realli dun wish to talk to him unless i can be sure the ending is not so pain... for i fear the pain might just cost our relationship T.T ... ... ... *****In Pain***** *****Missing HIM***** *****EMPTY***** *****Lonely***** Wht should i do??? is there anything for me to do???
Monday, February 2, 2009 ' 10:25 PM Y
Sry Guys so long nvr post T.T Was super bz with school... so i was lazy to post hahas!!!
So actually the past 2 weeks has been super hectic for me!!! So many things to do T.T
My CNY was fun but tiring. Had to tok to relatives so many times. Haiz... But i got one FANTASTIC news!!!
My Dad say I can keep Glen as my boyfriend^^
I love My Boyfriend loads <33333
I also learned how to play showhand! hehes
But nowadays i so sleepy T.T
My relative always dun let me sleep until 3 or 4 am plus T.T
Then ytd nite i try sleep early, he go whack my arm until swollen T.T now my right shoulder injured!!! T.T
Valentines day is coming... i wish i cn go out b4 tt so tt i can spend valentine's day with my beloved boyfriend... but the chances are slim T.T T.T T.T
This week and nxt week will hav loads of test so i will be busy... Our cpl licence lvl 4 ler^^ soon will be lvl 5 then we cn try upgrade ring ler^^ hehe
I love love love my laogong, boyfriend loadxxxx <333333333
Muacks laogong <333
Ok gtg ler... laogong waiting for me to chat chat ^^
Buaiss <3
Monday, January 19, 2009 ' 3:39 PM Y
hihi...
the start of a new week... but i fell ill =.="
Stomach pain & headache...
For most girls, they like shopping, but unfortunately for me...i hate shopping!!! So tiring... i just decide wht i wanna buy at home and get it quickly...
Haiz...last friday was so hectic...had to do so many things...T.T so STRESS!!!
Lucky got LAOGONG pei wo... whenever i tok to him very happy derh...no more stress hahas... So sian at home...audition also super slow...
Hope to upgrade to new com soon... Ytd nite tok to laogong until 12plus...then he off9 but still sms me^^ then at 1 he go slp...but i continue do hw until 2 then slp...also wrote a bit in the book^^
Btw here are some photos of me, laogong and nuer in audition. And our ZHU ZHUs!!!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 ' 6:22 PM Y
hi guys^^
i have been so sian this few days sia...but i sms honey almost 12hours a day so not entirely sians hahas.
Today had choir meeting...quite bored...nth much...
Today i also made a 'boyfriend' hahas...as in a male friend... He accompanied me during recess and we walked out of school after school^^ So today i was not that bored la...
Since my dad went oversea, i had so much freedom but so much chores to do... My relatives are horrible...they keep making me do things...like i am a maid like that... i mean i already hav 2 maids at home why cant they ask them...
Haiz...
today honey got NCC...waiting for him to finish then i sms him^^
Last two day got two cuts T.T Saturday got a cut by a long leave...cut my leg T.T Then ytd got paper cut in school...so pain T.T ... must be more careful sia...
Honey too got hurt ytd...i think a fish bone got stuck in his throat or sth... Hahas...he so cute derh ^^ ...dunnu how explain just feel he cute cute derh^^
I gtg ler...wait for my honey^^
Buaiis!!!
Saturday, January 10, 2009 ' 11:43 AM Y
Today morning so sians
No one tok to me T_T
So i just tok here la... Haiz... Nw i hab so many feelings in me pain, fear, sadness, anger and hate... My life so miserable T_T My heart and stomach is in pain... I fear of losing something so important to me. I am so sad that no one understands me. I am angered by someone who went back on her words and she knw she is doing something wrong but goes ahead with it. *ANGRY* !!! I hate this person so much... Haiz... Ytd my honey came back from camp...he say food not nice...and he got cut on the leg T_T We tok until abt 1 plus this morning then i fell asleep. This morning he had NCC...dunnu whether cn see him during the weekends T_T... I feel so sad and heart pain when i knw i most probably won't see him for the next 1 day or so T_T... Cant stop thinking abt him... Anyway mayb ltr i going out... cant tok liao T_T ~~~Stomach pain~~~ T_T
Buaiis
